Stand up for Israel

This morning me, my husband, and a group of friends watched the Glenn Beck "Restoring Courage" broadcast from Jerusalem. The message was powerful and poignant. It made me ponder about courage and personal responsibility. What am I giving to the world, or to my neighbor for that matter?

I've made a commitment to enhance a quality I already possess--a quality which can always use a little evaluating and polishing. I'm starting small. I have pledged to be more kind.

"The highest form of wisdom is kindness."
The Talmud

The China Book and Liberty

The China book is finished and off to my editor. It was a difficult book to write, not because of the extensive research, or the shortened duration of time to get it done, but because of the subject matter. I became quite sick at heart because of what the Chinese people had to suffer at the hands of Mao Tse-tung. He was not a nice person. I used many first hand autobiographical book sources in my research, and their stories were wrenching. I also spoke to several people whose families escaped from mainland China when the Communists took over. They went to Hong Kong and Taiwan, and they were very candid in their feelings of Chairman Mao and the devastation he brought to the country they love.

Therefore, it amazes me that anyone would say they admire Mao Tse-tung. All one has to do is a little bit of research to discover he is not a man to use as a role model for anything. Of course, even in America, there are people with strong yearnings for a Socialist/Communist government who admire the brutality of Marx and Engles' philosophy. And it is brutal. You look at any leader and administration who has twisted their government into a Communist regime and it is always done through terror, torture, and brutality.

I am so grateful that I live in the United States of America. I thank divine Providence that this country of America was founded on principles of law and liberty. I honor the Founding Fathers for their deep investigation of all types of government which enabled them to forge such a miraculous document--the Constitution of the United States.

I ask that you think long and hard about where "we the people" want to guide this country in the coming crucial years. We still have the amazing ability to choose. Let's not lose it through apathy.

Focus

There are times when my mind functions well. I feel calm and organized. Other times? Not so much. Such has been the case the last couple of months. My mind has lacked focus. I've been working on my next novel on Mao Tse-tung and the Cultural Revolution, and have had to force myself to focus on researching and writing. Historical tidbits are the life blood of a historical novel and normally I have the discipline to endure the hours of reading, outlining, and refining necessary to get the historical events into the story. This time it's been tough. I think part of the problem was the subject matter. Mao was a despicable person and his reign from 1949-1976 was one of suffering and sorrow for the people of China. I became mentally and emotionally exhausted.

I think the other (and more poignant) reason for lack of focus was the personal grief I was experiencing as the first anniversary of our son's death drew near. We had been told by others who had lost children that the first anniversary was difficult. Without question. As we went through March and April and into May I felt my mind wandering and my heart sorrowing. I didn't want to deal with the everyday demands of life (laundry, grocery shopping, cooking) let alone writing a book, or fostering friendships. It was a tough time.

I'm better now. My hubby, daughter, and myself have a deep love for each other. We also have good friends that rallied around us, and a strong faith in God. With all this, we survived the horrendous time.

I also learned to be gentle with myself. There are going to be times when, for one reason or another, I'm not going to be able to be focused, and it's okay. Sometimes forcing focus in one direction keeps us from seeing a new vista.

Reverence For a Power Greater Then Yourself

There is a Jewish proverb which states: "If God lived on earth, people would break his windows."

I agree. Even though there are bastions of faith and goodness, I often hear a lot of vitriol slung at God. "If there is a God, why does he let bad stuff happen?" or, "God is really mean, cause look at all the terrible things that have been done in His name." or, "God must really get a kick out of watching us suffer."

I am here to state that God is good. I am one of those who believe that there are opposing forces in the world--good and evil, and often the atrocities and sadness in the world are caused by that evil force. God is so good that he allows man free agency, even though His heart breaks with some of man's brutal choices.

When I think of God, I see kindness and forbearance. I also see that He has a deep respect for us. He allows us the freedom to figure things out, to stand up against injustice, to be less selfish, to reach out to others in need, to ease suffering, to bring joy to the world. If we see injustice or evil in the world, perhaps God intends for us to do something about it.

FRIENDS!

I love my friends! They come in a variety of looks and personalities, and they are all precious to me. They are family and not; they are neighbors and not; they are mainlanders and not. I have met them over 50 some years of my life and they have enriched every day.

Over the years we've talked on the telephone, written letters (yes, actual hand-written letters), gone to lunch and movies, visited on vacations, worked together, and laughed and cried together.

My friends have been by my side during the best and worst times of my life. I would not have made it through some of life's trials without the hugs and kind words of my buddies.

I tell my friends often what they mean to me, but I want express here on paper a sincere thank you. Aloha nui!

Words for this Special Season

Our Christmas celebration this year will be more about service and less about "stuff". It just feels right. Our focus will be on the precious gifts brought to earth with the birth of the Son of God: peace, love, and hope. I have a feeling those things will bring us serenity.

"Love cannot remain by itself--it has no meaning. Love has to be put into action, and that action is service."

--Mother Teresa--

Almost December

The last time I posted a blog it was summer--the temperature was hot, the grass green, and the flowers blooming. It is now the end of November--the temperature is cold, the grass is covered in eight inches of snow, and the only flowers I see are the ones I buy at the grocery store.

I'm sorry for the lack of communication. Since Shawn's death in May, George and I have had a hard time getting back to the "normal" of life. In fact, we don't know what "normal" looks like anymore. We also lack energy, which means we take care of the necessities of life and little else.

Not to worry. Our faith is strong and we will move through this, but we have to be reasonable about what we take on and what we let go.

I will try and write a line or two every now and then.

In the meantime...cherish life.